Dear Diary

I can barely believe what’s happened over the past few weeks. It feels like a whirlwind of emotions, desires, and discoveries.It all started when I met him – my date, my lover. I was drawn to him like a magnet, and I couldn’t deny the chemistry between us. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn’t help myself. I had to have him.As I began to explore this new desire, I realized that I had to be honest with Alex. I was nervous about how he would react, but I knew I had to be truthful. To my surprise, he was more understanding than I expected. He’s always been a good husband, but this was different. This was about me, my desires, and my needs.As I started to see my date more regularly, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of excitement and guilt. I loved the way he made me feel – desired, wanted, and alive. But at the same time, I felt guilty for cheating on Alex. I knew it wasn’t fair to him, but I couldn’t help myself.But what really surprised me was how much I enjoyed the power dynamic between Alex and me. I loved being in control, making him wait, and watching him squirm with desire. It was exhilarating, and I felt like I was discovering a new side of myself.As for Alex, I have to admit that I feel a mix of emotions towards him. I love him, but I also feel sorry for him. He’s so submissive, so willing to please me, and it’s almost like he’s given up on his own desires. Sometimes I feel like I’m taking advantage of him, but at the same time, I know he’s consenting to all of this.My date, on the other hand, is a different story altogether. He’s confident, charming, and knows exactly what he wants. I love the way he takes control, the way he makes me feel like I’m the only woman in the world. It’s intoxicating, and I find myself craving more and more.As for the future, I’m not sure what’s going to happen. I know I want to continue seeing my date, but I also don’t want to hurt Alex. I feel like I’m living two separate lives, and it’s only a matter of time before something has to give.For now, I’m just going to enjoy the ride and see where it takes me. I know it’s not going to be easy, but I’m willing to take the risk.Until next time,Maddie

Dear Diary,I’ve been feeling guilty about something, and I need to confess it to myself. I’ve been having unprotected sex with my date. I know it was reckless and irresponsible, but I couldn’t help myself. The thrill of it, the excitement, the feeling of being alive…it was all so overwhelming.But what’s worse is that I didn’t tell Alex. I know he specifically asked me to use protection, and I lied to him. I told him I would, but I didn’t. I feel so guilty about it, but at the same time, I don’t know if I can bring myself to tell him the truth.I know it’s not fair to Alex. He trusts me, and I’ve broken that trust. But I’m scared of how he’ll react. Will he be angry? Will he leave me? I don’t know if I can handle the consequences of my actions.I know I need to be honest with Alex, but I’m not sure if I’m ready for that yet. For now, I’ll just have to live with the guilt of my secret.I hope I can find the courage to tell him the truth soon. Until then, I’ll just have to keep living with this secret, and the guilt that comes with it.Yours truly,Maddie

Dear Diary,

Oh, my goodness! My date was absolutely amazing! I can’t even begin to describe the way he made me feel. He’s so charming, so confident, and so passionate. The way he touches me, the way he looks at me, the way he makes love to me…it’s all just so incredible.

I find myself thinking about him all the time, wondering what it would be like to be with him all the time. And then I start thinking about Alex, and how much I love him, but in a different way. Alex is my rock, my emotional support, my best friend. But my date…he’s my passion, my fire, my desire.

Sometimes I imagine a world where women have the right to have two husbands. Can you imagine it? I could marry my date and keep Alex too! I know it sounds crazy, but it’s just so tempting. Alex would be my emotional husband, my partner in life, and my date would be my passionate husband, my lover, my desire.

I know it’s not possible in this world, but a girl can dream, right? And who knows, maybe in some alternate universe, I’m living a life with two husbands, and it’s absolutely amazing.

For now, I’ll just have to keep dreaming, and enjoying the time I have with both of them. My date may be amazing in bed, but Alex has my heart, and that’s something no one can ever replace.

Yours truly,
Maddie

Dear Diary,

I’m still feeling the aftermath of my date last night. I’m sore, I’m tender, and I’m exhausted. But it was all worth it, every single moment of it.

But now, I have to deal with Alex. And let me tell you, it’s not easy. He’s like a cry baby, always whining and complaining about something. I know he’s feeling left out, feeling like he’s not getting the attention he needs. But I have to be strict with him, I have to remind him of his place.

As a hotwife, I have to be firm, I have to be in control. I have to make sure that Alex knows that I’m the one who’s in charge, who’s making the rules. But at the same time, I have to make sure that he’s getting some kind of sexual relief. I don’t want him to feel like he’s being completely denied, like he’s being left out in the cold.

It’s a delicate balance, one that I’m still trying to figure out. But I know that I have to be careful, I have to make sure that I’m not pushing Alex too far. I don’t want him to feel like he’s losing me, like he’s not good enough for me.

I’ll have to find a way to give him some kind of release, some kind of satisfaction. Maybe I’ll have to let him watch me with my lover, or maybe I’ll have to find some other way to give him what he needs. Whatever it is, I’ll have to make sure that it’s something that works for both of us.

Yours truly,
Maddie

Dear Diary,

I’ve been doing some research and I’m shocked at what I’ve found. Bareback intimacy with a bull is more common than I thought, and some cucks are actually more interested in it. I’m not sure how to process this information, but I know I have to find a way to tell Alex.

I’ve been worried about hurting him, but I know I have to be honest. I’ve been searching for advice and I found a wife who’s similar to me on a web portal. She’s been through something similar and she gave me some valuable advice.

She told me that cucks actually enjoy being humiliated, and that it’s a big part of their fetish. She suggested that I start humiliating Alex with love, making him feel like he’s not good enough, but in a playful way. She said that at the height of excitement, I can reveal the truth to him.

I’m not sure if this is the right approach, but I’m willing to try. I want to be honest with Alex, but I also don’t want to hurt him. I’ll have to be careful and make sure that I’m not pushing him too far.

I’ll start by being more playful and teasing him, making him feel like he’s not good enough. I’ll have to be careful not to hurt his feelings, but I’m hoping that this will help him prepare for the truth.

Wish me luck!

Yours truly,
Maddie

Dear Diary,

I’ve been getting so much inspiration from my internet friend Lisa Z, a hotwife who’s been sharing her experiences and ideas with me. She’s been a wealth of knowledge and has given me so many cuckolding humiliation ideas that I’m excited to try out with Alex.

Some of the ideas she’s shared with me include making Alex wear a chastity cage all day, giving me a foot massage, wearing girls’ dresses and doing all the chores. I know it sounds crazy, but I’m excited to see how Alex will react to these humiliation tactics.

But what’s really inspired me is Lisa’s confidence and guilt-free attitude towards her sexual desires. She’s shown me that as a woman, I don’t have to choose between loving my husband and exploring my own desires. I can have both, and I shouldn’t feel guilty about it.

Lisa’s taught me that it’s okay to prioritize my own pleasure and to seek out experiences that make me happy. She’s shown me that I don’t have to be tied down by societal expectations or traditional norms. I can create my own rules and live life on my own terms.

I’m so grateful to have Lisa as a role model and friend. She’s given me the courage to explore my own desires and to live life without guilt or shame. I’m excited to see where this journey takes me and to share my own experiences with Lisa and others.

Thanks, Lisa, for being such an inspiration!

Yours truly,
Maddie

Dear Diary,

Lisa has been telling me more about the cuckold society she’s a part of, and I’m fascinated. Apparently, it’s a club where cuckold couples gather and have fun, sharing their experiences and supporting each other. It sounds like a safe space for people like us to connect and learn from each other.

According to Lisa, the club organizes different types of events, from casual get-togethers where they discuss their experiences and problems, to more elaborate parties where they can live out their fantasies. They even have a board that helps connect hotwives with bulls and organizes events.

I’m so excited to learn more about this club and the community that comes with it. Lisa has invited me to join, but I’m hesitant. I don’t know how Alex will react to the idea of us being part of a cuckold club. He’s already struggling with the idea of me being with other men, and I’m not sure if he’s ready for this level of openness.

I’m torn between my desire to explore this new world and my concern for Alex’s feelings. I know that I need to be honest with him and have an open conversation about this, but I’m scared of his reaction.

I’ll have to think carefully about how to approach this conversation with Alex. Maybe I’ll start by asking him more questions about his feelings and boundaries, and see where the conversation goes from there.

Wish me luck!

Yours truly,
Maddie